Post by LEXUS on Mar 10, 2012 21:28:46 GMT -5
[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, width: 330px; background-image: url(http://a2.l3-images.myspacecdn.com/profile01/134/c821e17829424f36a6ce5a97d03df193/s.jpg);][style=float: right; border: 5px solid #000000; margin: 5 2 0 0px;][/style][style= margin: 10 0 0 3px; width: 250px; height: 90px; border: 2px dashed #000000; background-color: 800000; color: FFFFFF; size: 6px; line-height: 95%; font-family: Georgia;]Come inside and be afraid Of this impressive mess I've madeIf you take a look now you will find;I have thrown away my vice Done away with paradise See what's going on inside my mind Please let me out [/style][style= margin: 10 10 0 10; width: 310px; height: 380px; text-align: justify; background-color: 800000; color: FFFFFF; border-bottom: 2px dashed #000000; border-top: 2px dashed #000000; padding: 8 8 8 8; overflow: auto;] Forbidden was a word I liked. It was, one, telling me it was off limits, and two, it was trying to restrain me. No matter what they said, I could always go into the forest and enjoy my own company for once. I liked myself, really. It was much more fun than having to put up with the crap the other students gave me for being a bit different. I was more defiant in nature, yes. It was the way I was and no one would dare try to change me. Who would want to change me anyways? I liked to be alone, spitting venom, and angry all the time. If they had a problem with that, they could always take it up with me. No need to go talking about me, unless of course, they wanted their head on a platter at the bottom of a lake. Then, they could go and tell me they didn't like the way I was. Those people could go burn in a ditch for all I cared about. I just wanted to lean back and let the whole world disappear. Closing my eyes, I sucked in all the air that could be taken into my lungs at one time and let it out in a long and exasperated sigh along with the sound of me exhaling. The air around me was hot and sticky from the height of humidity that had reached it's peak today. I could barely stand up without having the feeling of the world dragging me back to the ground in a way that I did not enjoy very much. Not was their only that, but the fact that I was just too plain out lazy to go back to school. I was cutting class right now. So, it wasn't a very good idea, in fact, to go back right now. I could get in trouble, and that would bring attention to me, wouldn't it? But, for this, I was happy. It was quite rare that I was enjoying myself in any way, shape, or form. This, this silence and aloofness, was more than I could ask for. All that would make this moment was if I had a friend to share it with. Not the students that went to the school. Most of them just wanted to keep their spot on the food chain and have friends and have a life. I just wanted to get a boy to like me then tell him off and maybe smack him around to get a reaction out of him. That would be the day, wouldn't it? That someone like me was around of course me. Someone like me to talk to me and understand me for once. There was Tybalt... who I was kind of afraid had a crush on me. I wasn't interested, really. I wanted to make him suffer, even though he was my friend. If he truly did love me, he would have to fight for me. I wasn't a prize to be won for him just be knocking me off my feet. I was going to make a boy suffer. Oh how terrible I could be at times. No one was like me. If there was someone like me, I would think I was either crazy or just plain stupid. [/style][style=margin: 10 10 10 10; width: 310px: height: 50px; overflow: auto; background-color: 800000; border-top: 2px dashed #000000; border-bottom: 2px dashed #000000; color: #FFFFFF; padding: 8 8 8 8px;]Words: 553 Tags: Muse: Inspiration: Other:[/style][style=margin: 0 10 10 10; width: 330px; background-color: 800000; color: #FFFFFF; padding: 6 6 6 6px; border-top: 2px dashed #000000; border-bottom: 2px dashed #000000;]Lyrics from Perfect Insanity by Disturbed Post template designed by Amami 天海 of OTE[/style] |